They are beyond grateful.


Donating blood, organs, or anything else has always fascinated me, especially after struggling with my heart. I have a condition that no one can donate something so simply, and help me get better. If they could, it would be amazing-… Continue Reading

A Letter to God From The Girl That Desperately Wants to be Healthy.

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God,  I hate this. I used to say that I hated you because of unanswered prayers. I’m sorry- I don’t hate you. I just hate this. The pain. The unanswered tests. The unanswered prayers. The longing to be healthy. I… Continue Reading

Even if.

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Many days I ask myself what I will do if this never goes away. What will happen if this is the plan God has for my life? Just one diagnosis after another, without relief.  Some days I think about my… Continue Reading

I want to be labeled as healthy.


7 years ago I made the decision to become a vegetarian. It was an innocent decision that lasted for a few years that way. Then it slowly started to become my excuse.  My excuse to not have to eat much.… Continue Reading



For the first time in a really long time I am okay.  I went to yet another appointment last Friday. I was somewhere between ‘dreading it’ and ‘hopeful’. I left actually feeling okay about it all, which is a first.… Continue Reading

Two Years.

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Two years ago today, I started this blog. I started it out of place of anger. I started it as a girl that couldn’t see a future. A girl whose relationship with God was barely there. A girl who wore… Continue Reading

Some hope.

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It’s not the outcome I wanted. I wanted to walk in those hospital doors with a misbehaving Herald (my heart is such a big part of my life, he deserved a name, right?! LOL), and walk out with a well-behaved… Continue Reading