In the eye of the storm.


I sometimes don’t talk about it, so some people think that I’m okay, or that I’m better. To be honest, I don’t know if I’ll ever know what better feels like. And that scares me. But, at the same time,… Continue Reading

They are beyond grateful.


Donating blood, organs, or anything else has always fascinated me, especially after struggling with my heart. I have a condition that no one can donate something so simply, and help me get better. If they could, it would be amazing-… Continue Reading

A Letter to God From The Girl That Desperately Wants to be Healthy.

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God,  I hate this. I used to say that I hated you because of unanswered prayers. I’m sorry- I don’t hate you. I just hate this. The pain. The unanswered tests. The unanswered prayers. The longing to be healthy. I… Continue Reading

Even if.

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Many days I ask myself what I will do if this never goes away. What will happen if this is the plan God has for my life? Just one diagnosis after another, without relief.  Some days I think about my… Continue Reading

I want to be labeled as healthy.


7 years ago I made the decision to become a vegetarian. It was an innocent decision that lasted for a few years that way. Then it slowly started to become my excuse.  My excuse to not have to eat much.… Continue Reading



For the first time in a really long time I am okay.  I went to yet another appointment last Friday. I was somewhere between ‘dreading it’ and ‘hopeful’. I left actually feeling okay about it all, which is a first.… Continue Reading

Two Years.

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Two years ago today, I started this blog. I started it out of place of anger. I started it as a girl that couldn’t see a future. A girl whose relationship with God was barely there. A girl who wore… Continue Reading