Will my story include healing?
You hear it a lot, “pray and it’ll be answered”,
-but what if it isn’t?
I believe in the power of prayer. There’s no doubt in my mind prayer works. An answered prayer is a true miracle.
But, do I believe every single prayer is answered? Yes, and no. I do not believe He always answers our prayers with the outcome we pray for.
God hears every single prayer, but I believe that God sometime’s says, not yet, and sometimes even no.
I recently read the story of the two blind men in the Bible.
27 As Jesus went on from there, two blind men followed him, shouting, “Have mercy on us, Son of David!” 28 When he went into the house, the blind men came to him. Jesus said to them, “Do you believe that I am able to do this?” They said to him, “Yes, Lord.” 29 Then he touched their eyes saying, “Let it be done for you according to your faith.” 30 And their eyes were opened.
A few years back I had someone tell me that my heart wasn’t being healed because I didn’t believe God would heal it. I told her I believe He can heal me, but I don’t believe He will heal it just because I pray for it to be, unless it’s a part of His plan.
That doesn’t stop me from praying for healing, but it stops me from being so angry at God when healing doesn’t happen. I used to be so bitter towards God because I’d pray for the pain to stop, and my prayers were never answered. My relationship with Christ was slowly becoming non-existent, all because I had this notion in my head that God would heal me if I asked. I would question everything- maybe I wasn’t a good enough Christian, was I was praying wrong, and was God even real.
I sometimes wonder if God has a different story for my healing. Maybe earthly healing is not a part of His plan.
I still pray, and I still hope one day God heals my heart. Either way, I have faith that He has a plan, and He will answer each prayer according to His will.
God healed the blind men in the story. God asked if they believed He could do it, and they said yes, and they were healed.
It’s a miracle story, but sometimes our miracles become evident in a different way.
Just because you aren’t healed, doesn’t mean God isn’t listening to every prayer, and seeing every tear that falls from your eyes- He does.
He is right beside you, holding you close.
I truly believe that God answers every prayer, but sometimes the answers aren’t what we want, and I am learning to be okay with that.
Maybe healing isn’t a part of my story here on Earth, but I will continue to use my pain to tell others about this journey God has placed me on. It might not have been the path I prayed for, but it’s the path God has me on until He answers my prayers in a different way.