I had my sinus node ablated 6.5 weeks ago. I gave an update a month ago, and things were still very up and down. 

I am so happy to say I am in a really good place. My heart rate is fairly stable. I am on the highest dose of two heart medications, but it’s working. 

Before my surgery, I was on the highest doses, and it was not being as effective. 

So this is great news. 

The goal has never been for me to be medication-free. But the goal has been for my heart to function properly, even if it needs some medication to help it along.

I feel so much better. I feel like I can take my kids to the park, or just get up and clean the house. It’s given me back so much, and I am so thankful for a doctor that gave me this opportunity. 

I am still aware every single day that this could still fail. And I hate that feeling of knowing that there’s a possibility that this new lease on life can end at any moment. 

Every time I walk up the stairs I am bracing myself for an episode. Every time I carry my kids out to the car, I feel a sigh of relief that it was manageable this time. There’s always that feeling of, will it happen today. 

But I am trying so hard to look at what God has given me. Even if it’s just for another day, it’s still something. 

I saw my cardiologist last week, and he is very happy with the results. I am cleared for SIX MONTHS. 

I have never gone that long without my heart starting issues again, so I am praying that I can actually make it to six months. 

That will literally be another miracle added to the books.