Speaking Out- I forgive you.

I never wanted to write this out. Never wanted the words to be visible. But the last few days have made me realize that until I make peace with this, and you, I will never be able to truly move past this.  You hurt me.  Plain and simple. You hurt me in the most vulnerable places of my soul. You took things away from me that I can never get back.  When I first met you, you had a way about you that made me feel safe, until you slowly turned that safety into control.  You could say jump, and I would have jumped. And you knew that. You knew that you had me right where you wanted me.  I never wanted to write this. But you took the word no, and turned it into an I can do whatever I want.  The first time you asked me if you could do something, and I hesitated, and said “I don’t-“, and you continued before I could finish my sentence and said, it’s no big deal. I cried the entire way home. I cried because I thought I did something wrong. I was so confused to why someone who said they loved me, could […]

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An Open Letter to Someone Very Special with Alzheimer’s.

Last year I was affected by Alzheimer’s in an incredible, yet heartbreaking way. I took on the job as a caregiver during the day for an elderly lady that had Alzheimer’s. I did not think twice about taking the job, and just thought it would be the same as sitting with my grandma all day. I was wrong. The first week I will admit, it was hard. Caring for her wasn’t hard, although there were times I was stressed to the max, but I didn’t want her to know. It was seeing how Alzheimer’s affected people with it, and their loved ones. I cared for her all summer, and it was the most rewarding thing I have ever done. I decided to write a letter to express how much love I have in my heart for her, and to say this: Alzheimer’s might affect the person, but it does not make them any less of a person. This special woman might never know how much she changed my life, but she’s been on my heart lately so I wanted to write this post. I hope maybe one person will read this and realize that if they have someone in their […]

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